Post by JAKOBI DEAN MERRICK on Feb 15, 2010 21:29:46 GMT -5
JAKOBI DEAN
JAKOBI DEAN MERRICK• JAK, JAK-ASS
MAY THIRTEENTH • SEVENTEEN • FUCK IT
DATEN SERENTITY • SENIOR • MALE
ASSHOLE • DRUG-ABUSER • INSECURE • TWO-FACED • UNSTABLE
it could be the drugs talking.
all I see are little circles. spinning…
spinning…
I really fucked up this time.
I think I‘m losing my mind.
if I haven‘t already. I‘m not sure.
by now I‘m sure my brain cells have depleted to half their numbers
and I can feel the addiction taking over
every
last
Nerve.
and I never meant to get this bad
but no one fucking understands
that when you don‘t have a fucking savior
or that one thing in your life to make you happy
the only thing to do is to give in
And I have.
each day is a blur
the last time I really smiled was…
I don’t fucking remember
every day is a fucking struggle
and I hate my life
and I hate everyone in it
and I wish there was a way I could make it go
relying on a line of cocaine does nothing
taking a shot of morphine only numbs the pain
heroin makes me a mess, I hate it
ecstasy makes my brain look like swiss cheese
what else can I do though.
Seriously
I’m fucking asking for help
nevermind.
I‘m pretty sure the pool of red is my blood
I hack up clots like no other
when I‘m not spitting out insides, others are
fighting never scared me
and I will make you hurt
without a second
a second thought…
I can’t even think
I feel like shit
threw up again today
like you care
assholes
I’m an asshole
and I don’t care
But I’m sorry.
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